Friday, January 26, 2007

Update

I am just cut-and-pasting this from another message ... it's not eloquent but it'll tell you what's going on.


Yesterday was HARD, it was a big mental shift for me to see her with her mom. I think it is the first time I have really understood in my HEART what our status with Z really is -- what it really means to be a foster mom. Mom "S" is doing really well in her treatment. And she is a nice lady and obviously really really loves Z. She is on the verge of being able to get a CNA job -- she had an interview yesterday morning that she said went really well.

I think, to be really honest, it's a 50/50 chance or less that we will adopt Z. But we'll see what happens. Really, everything will depend on the judge.

I told the social worker at the doctor this morning (yes, she did end up coming with) that I really do wish S the best and want her to succeed. But I don't trust her. And the SW said that's how it should be and that is exactly how the agency sees it.

Yesterday I was really really upset about this stuff -- just sick to my stomach all afternoon. But today I am doing better.

Z had 3 shots this morning but did really well. She is a trooper! And she talked and cooed at S all through the appointment. S was loving it, of course. But after the shots ... she only wanted me.

3 comments:

MaryRuth said...

Hi! So so sorry you're having a hard day. No wise words of wisdom... just lots and lots of hugs.

Bek said...

Ana,

Me too. It is hard to have your heart and mind want it two ways. I love that you are doing this, but I understand why the world needs more foster parents.

Hugs..

Lisa M. said...

Ana-

There is so much in my heart to say, and yet the words sound empty.

I know this plight can not be easy, I hope you are blessed with peace-

May the answers to your prayers, come softly.