Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Flutter, flutter

Tomorrow I go into court for Z for the first time. I didn't even know I could ask to attend previous hearings. So this is all new.

It's an interim hearing, and we expect that they will order weekend visits. I sure hope they don't start this weekend. Can you imagine anything to ruin G's Father's Day any worse? He loves that baby girl so much. And I believe to my core that she needs a good, loving, stable daddy. It breaks my heart to think there's a chance she could be denied that in her life when he adores her so.

Back to the hearing: I am feeling like any word I say tomorrow could be the proverbial flap of a butterfly's wing. I'm gonna be praying extra hard tonight that I can choose my words correctly and not create any undesired implications.

Last night I had the unbidden thought that maybe the best way for us to have Z in our family permanently is to let the system work, let S have her chance, and be ready to get Z back if or when S can't make it work. A prompting? That, I have to figure out.

Any prayers, good energy, or whatever you've got to send my way would be most welcome. It is a strange feeling, being where I am right now.

6 comments:

SalGal said...

I'm going to pray right now!

Essy said...

Praying! That 'prompting' sounds right on...as hard as itcan be...I personally believe that with foster to adopt situations it is the only way.

Anne/2rosebud said...

I'll be praying my heart out for you today!

Jennie said...

i hope all went well... we eagerly await...

Ana said...

Thanks for the support girls ... it is so nice to see that from old and new friends.

Everything went more or less as expected. We were not asked to speak at all. The de facto parent status request will be addressed another day. Overnight visits will begin this weekend. We will say goodbye Saturday morning for two whole days. Not my first choice ... but my first choice was not so realistic, I guess.

Here's to a joyful reunion Sunday night, eh?

Amber said...

Oh Ana. Imagining how hard this weekend will be for you all truly gives me a knot in my stomach. I'll be thinking of you.